Monday, July 27, 2009

A Tremenous Ocean


I had a dream in which I stood on the face of a tremendous ocean,
which spanned in every direction expect the one I came from.
And that the motion of the sea mirrored the motion inside,
and that the beasts of the deep moved from the inside.

I dreamed that in time, with time, the hopeless rhymes of hopeless men,
oscillating wildly between heaven and hell, between the lovely and the sane,
would resound against mountainous waves, and reverberate down valleys of water.
These things lose their values, redefined amidst a tremendous ocean.

For love and for learning and most assuredly for life, we undertake tedious tacks,
and lose tremendous distance, and sacrifice tremendous gains.
During the night, and during the calms, we call ourselves tremendous, primary projections on an oceanic existence.
But during the storms and when the valleys crash around us, and the books we read when we were young lose their meaning, we lose ourselves and submit.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Thoughts on Books

Holy smokes, have I read a lot this summer. I suppose its all relative; after coming out of 8 months of controlled and intense college curriculum, I finally have the time and disposable income necessary to properly tend my addiction to reading. In all honesty, I have bought very few books this summer, most notably borrowing Centennial from my mother which initiated a slight Michener-craze (I followed Centennial with Space). I found Michener's style to be irritating at times (not in a Dan Brown-type sense), however his ability to put the reader in the exact place and time his story is set in is a truly remarkable skill. After awhile I gave up caring about shallow, underdeveloped characters and began to appreciate the fact that Michener was describing a world to me instead of simply telling a story. Quite rewarding.

I found time while I was reading both of these rather large books to polish off two slightly smaller books. Again, I spent no money on either, instead relying upon the generously stuffed bookcase of my girlfriend. Breakfast of Champions by Kurt Vonnegut and Freakonomics by Steven Levitt. Freakonomics reminded me of when, in 9th grade, I decided to read The World is Flat and subsequently worked the word "globalization" into very school-assigned essay I wrote. Easy and fun, equal parts intriguing and idiotic, I believe I read it in a single day (not that I believe speed is a good measure of enjoyment, or even less, understanding). Breakfast of Champions just confused me, but I'm using the strenous nature of last semester as my excuse for lacking the specific literary gravitas to appreciate Vonnegut's adolescent, glandular-disorderesque whining.

After these four books, Sarah reccomended (and lent me) Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follet. Chock-full of uncomfortable rape scenes, Pillars of the Earth left me bewildered. I thoroughly enjoyed long sections, only to be interrupted by a random and graphic scene that left me reeling. Perhaps its my over-developed sense of self-righteousness that left me indignant at the sort of content I wouldn't have batted an eye at if I watched on a TV show. Whatever the case may be, I think I will pick up the sequel before the end of the summer.

While I was in Maine, I picked up Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoyevsky and Pride and Prejudice and Zombies (a rewritten version of the romantic classic by Jane Austen). Crime and Punishment is, in a way, a sort of self-inflicted torture. It is, by no means, an enjoyable book. However, when I sit down with it on the train ride home and painstakingly march through 20 or 30 pages, I am reminded of my English AP class in high school, as well as the English courses I took during my first year of college. I learned a long time ago that you don't need to like a book to appreciate it, and Crime and Punishment, while terribly dull is one of those books in which runs a electric and exciting undercurrent just waiting for someone to tap into. Reading the introduction (and analysis by contemporary critics), and applying some of my own literary evaluation to it is an exciting, if not terribly rewarding experience. Perhaps the only reason I am having trouble breezing though is because the book was originally written in Russian.

Pride and Prejudice and Zombies, on the other hand, is a simple and fun book which Sarah took upon herself to lend her considerable voice talent to on the car ride back from Maine. As a result, I am waiting until she returns from vacation on the Cape, so that we can finish reading it together.

However, today I made the realization that I may have to commit the rest of my summer to a book that is not my ideal choice: the 8th Edition of Calculus.

Until next time,
Andrew

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Thoughts on the Summer

I started my summer class this morning at 8:30. I'm taking Calculus II at a satellite campus (which lies about 30 minutes down the train tracks from me). The city of Stamford is quite pleasant, and the refreshing sense of freedom I am experiencing this week at home alone was further intensified by the beautiful weather and the fact that I biked to and from the train station. The walk from the Stamford train station to the Stamford campus was extremely pleasant, and made me wish I had never given up rollerblading.

The class itself seems good enough. My professor, a quiet looking man who pushes his sarcasm through a thick Italian accent is eccentric and just disorganized enough to make him appealing. The class is large, and I have a feeling I won't strike up real friendships with anyone in the class, despite several lively conversations today. It seems that the electric anxiety that courses through most classes during the first meeting has been diluted to some degree by the relaxed summer-time atmosphere. We skipped review and plunged straight into the first chapter, and when I got home I finished five of the recommended review problems.

In other news, I just recently returned from a trip to Acadia National Park, in Maine. I stayed five days there with Sarah, and despite rainy weather on the second-to-last day (which consequently ruined a potential whale-watching cruise), the trip was tremendously enjoyable. I got a great deal of joy out of cooking my own food, trying (largely in vain) to start campfires in the face of adverse, rainy Maine weather; and the new experience of waking up to someone every morning and being perfectly content. There's no other way to describe it.